4/20/09
Well, I actually thought I might be getting off scott-free. Guess not. Guess Im just your typical person going through a divorce. This rotten day reared its ugly head slowly with a simmering reveal, building slowly but surely:
A pretty bad day.
So, yes, I am having a bad day. Not horrible. Not the worst so far and not the worst I can remember and Im sure not the worst that will be. Just a crummy, ugh day. It started okay but trended down to a nadir fairly early. I woke up to no work, not completely unexpected as yesterday was the last day of the pay period and in this economy everyone is glomming the work that is there and the weekenders suck the work dry on Sunday. So, when I logged onto my work site at 6:00 AM, there was no work. In my line of work, if you dont work, you dont get paid even though you are required to stay logged on and do the work as it comes it. It is necessary, just seems such a waste of time. (Too much thinking time for me right now is the devil and something I need less of and not more. My overactive mind is my worst enemy.) So, with all these extra bills and no money coming in but still required to sit and stare at a blank screen, my mood quickly began to fade. When I did finally get work, my computer decided to hop on the bandwagon and switch over to the other team, locking up multiple times, that blinking cursor that would not move winking its devilishness at me - Stupid Technology. This ate up so much time, and thus the frustration began. Add onto that the realtor message concerning the broker open tomorrow for the house for sale, a rainy cool day, and bills out the yin-yang, my mood started to wane and eventually just became flat-out grumpy and sad. Yup, the ugly cry showed today, just briefly - that old friend of mine. Guess Im human, although right now I dont feel very much like it.
I am going to keep this short, as that is how I feel - short. Short, mad, sad, lonely, crabby, mildly panicked, majorly irritated.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I try to think of a bad day as a striking comparison to the good days, the dark mirror that reflects how good a good day is. If the bad days werent so bad, the good days would not be so amazing.
And we'll leave it at that.
TODAY:
I wish was over.
MOOD:
See above.
I hope today was better, L! I've been behind on the blog reading for a few days and just got all caught up. Bummer that you had to move...but it you're like me, you feel "home". Last night I couldn't sleep at all. I just longed for my undersized twin bed in the corner of my lavendar bedroom at my parents' house...in fact, I fell asleep thinking of it. That will just always be my home.....no matter where I live.
ReplyDeleteAnyways...enough of my rambling! Text me anytime this week. I'm with the monsters tomorrow morning, but have the rest of the week off! :)